second day of exam. first paper of the day would be english for both forms; form 1 and 2. gotta admit i'm more nervous than my students for the exam. i did solat hajat the other day praying that they'll do well. sometimes i think karma is a really powerful force. i used to make fun of my teachers at school when they said that they were more worried than the students bout exams. i thought they were just saying that to make us feel guilty in which we never did..;p
i've taught them everything that will come out in the exam but still i was worried as hell. what if they forgot? what if they lost the notes i photocopied for them? what if they didn't study at all? what if they failed?? would that mean that i failed as a teacher as well?? oh my gosh. now i'm terrified!
an hour before the exam, i went out of the staffroom to the library to see puan rokiah to book the library for next tuesday for my 1G class. i planned to make them do a little bit of independent learning and find info about the school for their sivic project. unfortunately the library was closed. on the way back i bumped into acap, afiq, musa, and ikmal from 1C. get this: they were studying my notes together. thank god for that. god bless you for not losing the notes or throwing them away or recycling them into paper planes :)
the first thing they asked me was "cikgu, nk soalan bocor!" i laughed and told them that the notes in their hands were the 'soalan bocor'. just read your notes and you'll be fine. so i quizzed them orally a bit on articles, prepositions and nouns and finally of bunga telur and bally shoes. acap answered every question right. afiq came in second with musa and ikmal following behind. we had a good laugh seeing musa got confused between jamal or jamil. haha so sweet! we were then joined by kamarul who insisted that i looked down to the ground floor to see syafiq on a date with his girlfriend from 1A. the guys then started to whistle and you can see that syafiq was trying very unsuccessfully to maintain his machismo. it was hilarious. then they asked me to treat them for mcd if they got A for english and i was like "ooh i'm late already i've to go to the staffroom now." LOL..i luv these guys so much!
later i went into their class to monitor them for 'Pend. Islam/Pend. Moral' paper. both papers were easy! still they were struggling so hard. gayathry and sim yee kept asking me to explain some words in the paper. their malay vocab was so bad! they've no idea what 'sopan santun' and 'amanah' mean! the malays also asked the answers from me. seriously guys cant you even remember saidina abu bakar's nickname?? what are you, standard one?? haaaiish...
after the exam, they told me that the english paper was difficult especially the last section on short story. this is not good. this is so not good. i've just finished marking 1F's english paper and get this: only three of them passed. huhu. what to do? i felt so sad for them especially for firdaus and shahrin who kept asking me whether they passed or not. i just smiled and said i'll returned the paper next week. i talked about it with kak azah and kak noraini and they comforted me by saying that it was great that three actually passed. kak noraini then said she just marked 1F's maths paper and none of them passed. still i was no way near relief. i still feel bad about it. everyday i tried to make learning english an enjoyable experience for them like games and stuff but still it feels like it was never enough. i'm at a dead end. how can i face their disappointed faces next week when i returned the paper? urrggghh..depression..depression..
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