when exhaustion creeps...

right. i'm so not a succesful blogger. is it compulsory for us to update our blog on a daily basis?? can't it be weekly?? or monthly?? annually?? ok maybe not annually but still...being a trainee teacher is exhausting enough.

here's my routine for the past two weeks...

wake up..(hoping its saturday..)
go back to sleep..
wake up five seconds later..(realize its not..)
iron my baju kurung..
take a bath..
sms niza..(g kul bapa?)
siap2..(dgn x relanyer..)
jalan pi bustop..(ni klau siap awal la..)
borak2 kosong..(on the way to school..)
g clas yg x sampai 10 orang..(yg len sume pakat ponteng..)
g relief..(sadly never felt relief..)
balik sekola..
sesi luahan perasaan bersama housemates..(the best part of the day)
g dinner..(kat depan umah je x larat dh nk jln jauh2)
take a bath..
tidooo..
bangun pagi..(berkejar buat leson plan..)

yup.
dats my life.
i wonder how long that'll last...

today i taught 1F(the form one class with the worst attitude problem according to the other teachers..). just my luck dat the PK petang proudly lied to my ever-so-kind mentor, Mr. Selva, "Eh, Cikgu Ifa yang nak clas 1F..." Huh?? when did i ever said that? huhu..(x mo, x mo..ku memberontak..dalam ati je la..)

yeah back to 1F..surprisingly they were all there today..not a single truant-er(does this word exist? heheh..). even the chinese males participated today in the lesson. i was asked by my mentor to do a revision on characters in "The Pencil" since none of them can answer it in the previous exam..(only four of them pass for English, can u believe dat??)

we played a game where each of them has to stick a card with the correct characteristic on the board. tong wei shen as always gave excuse for not copying the notes by saying he cant see from the back. this time i used my rusty mandarin "Dai yanjing la.."(wear glasses la..) and all the snobbish chinese laughed along with me. hey it felt really good for the first time to be able to make them laugh. guess i've to brush up my mandarin more..hhmm do i still have my cassandra laoshi's phone number? wo xuyao ni laoshi!!

also today, Amirul Faiz, my student from 1G(i'm teaching them sivic) had human trafficked himself into 1F while i was teaching English..i had to chase him out of the class not because i dont like him but because i'm afraid cikgu syikin will sue me for having an illegal student from her class into my class. Faiz has actually been in almost all of my other classes as well. he practically smuggled himself saying he's from whatever class i was teaching at the moment(like i dun know which class he's from!)i only teach him sivic so dat means i only enter his class once a week and according to him dat is soo not enough..(ecececeeehhh...)

this week i had relief for 1G, 2F, 2C(clas niza), 2E and kelas peralihan..in kelas peralihan some students were fighting and they slapped each other..(the trend in the school: when form one students fight they slap each other, when form two students fight they punch each other..niceee..) i had to break them off as scary as that sound and one of them ran crying to the toilet and i lectured the other student but frankly i dun think he was even listening to me..haiiishh..wo zenmeyang??

1G is fine la because i'm teaching them sivic as well so relief class is a breeze. the only problem is i've to chase Faiz(again!!) to surau because he wont go for his Zuhur prayer.

2C is okay la..farid cant stop teaching, syahirah cant stop walking, syakila cant stop complimenting..(ikhlas ker huhu??), but all in all they were nice kids.

2F is..slightly unmanageable. Niza's stalker is in that class so i've to avoid talking about him at all cost..wah cam ahli politik dah aku skang..penoh tipu muslihat..dah tanyer byk sgt aku tibai je la jwb aper2 pon janji dia puas haha!

everytime they make me mad, i said to myself, "Budak2.."
wonder how long will it be till i can say that without gritting my teeth..
huahuahuahuahua...!!!

the best moment:

1. when one student came up to me after class and said "saya sayang cikgu.." (owh terharunyer..)
2. when two students (1F no less) came up to me after class and asked me to use another period to continue teaching them..(which i did..org dah mintak kan..kan..)
3. when one student came and apologized for misbehaving in the class and thanked me for willing to sacrifice my lunch time to teach him on articles..(baru korang tau cikgu sanggup berpanas berlapo demi korang..tapi lapo sungguh ari tuh!)

the worst moment:

1. salah masuk relief..haha x sabo sgt first time dapat relief sampai sejam awal dibuatnyer..malu jugok la sket..
2. kaki melecet the whole week so jalan terhencut2 sambil cover la. so i ended up walking so ayu to class when really my feet are hurting like crazy!
3. waiting for the last bell to ring...

yup.
my life as a trainee teacher is all roses and thorns..
whats a rose without its thorns rite??
its a package delivered straight to you with no guarantee and are not returnable..once you love your students, you keep them for life.

until then.